friday nov 26, 2010 day after thankgving

well, here i am. its the day after thanksgiving. had awsome day yesterday,. so of course things would go to shit. got to see my oldest son for a while yesterday, no wife, she never comes and sees his family.  dont know what her deal is. she is just a spoiled rotten girl. she never goes w/ him to see us exept for the funerals, and they are allways in such a hurry. oh well, what can i do. so anyway had great day yesterday. was up till about 4 a.m. w/ b.f. got home and my coffe maker just quit working, and i have lost my voice and i think im realy sick now. thats about how things go for me. i get one good day then everything goes to shit. i ussually try realy hard not to get to happy or exited, cause thats when it gets ya, every time. im here making coffee like a pioneer, which isint so bad, takes forever. so all i can do is whisper. i guess ive been talking too much. some people are probly very glad . i have such a loud voice. everyone thinks im from new york. never been. my best freind growing up was from there, but havnt seen her for many yrs.i need to learn to use my inside voice, which is still very loud. oh no a hot flash, ok, its better. had to turn fan on me. its only in the 30"s here. son went to friends for weekend. yay11111 we dont have any food realy. i should have went to a food pantry last week. could have maybe got a turkey. i have 5 days to try to live on 20.00. cant eat right on that kind of money. didnt go to y at all this week. have to go next week. throught feels like i gargled w/ razor blades. it hurts. ok, have to go make the pioneer coffe. be back in little while.