Friday check in

Been an interesting week.

Sunday a big fight with my mom yelling and shaming me for missing thanksgiving and trying to plan family Christmas solely based on my sister's schedule, with no regard for mine.  

Monday through Thursday morning I literally saw no one, spoke to no one.  (My husband was asleep before I got off work then gone before I got up and doesn't keep a phone on him).  The ONLY human contact I had at all those 3 days was a good friend on fb messager   --thanks A for not leaving me completely alone <3)

Thursday I finally get some time with my husband. 

Tomorrow I have to go have Christmas with my family at my mom's house. At my sister's insistence it's starting at 9am.

I don't get home from work until 2am tomorrow morning I'm going to be late no doubt..... probably not till 11. 

So it'll be most likely a fight as soon as I walk in the door.  I don't even want to go honestly. But it's my family. I'm kinda stuck.  My mom has always hated me and never shyed away from telling me so.

I feel obligated though cause I did skip thanksgiving....and my parents are in their late 70s.

I'm just dreading the guilt trip, criticism and mocking I know is in store for me tomorrow.

(-_-) Wish me luck