Freedom and Wishes

i wish i could be set free, free from my dreams,free from my demons.
I wish someone would hear me, help me. I wish someone would know what I was feeling and understand it. I wish i didnt wake up this morning feeling like i was being sufficated because I dreamed of larry's hand over my mouth so i wouldnt make a sound.I wish I could wear something sexy without feeling dirty.I wish my chains would be broken.I wish my heart would mend.I wish my mind would heal.I just want a good nights sleep, I wish i wasnt over-riden with guilt , I wish regret was not in my vocabulary, I'm searching for peace, I NEED INNER PEACE. My head is on overdrive and I cant stand it anymore.

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butterflybaby15
butterflybaby15

Im so sorry your hurting. I wish I could take the pain away. I promise you though that you can heal. I dont know your story but I was sexually abused by my father my entire childhood. I have been able to heal and go forward with my life. It wasnt easy but I did it!!! And you can too. If you need to vent PM me Im here anytime you need to talk. butterflybaby15
deleted_user
deleted_user

I am so sorry that you are hurting so much. I totally hear ya about being free and being free from stuff. I you ever need to talk you can alway send me a message. I can relate to how you feel. hugs. hang in there
deleted_user
deleted_user

ive never experienced that kind of thing but i am so sorry that happened to you and you feel this way. i really hope for you that you can find the things/people you need to be able to help yourself heal.
Shelly4
Shelly4

Being bound to something so horrible can be very suffocating. Letting go is so difficult to work through but can be done. Putting the blame where it belongs feels alien, but it can also be done. It took a few years of therapy for me to fade the horrible memories of my past abuse, but I did it and released his horrible touch and smell from me. I won, he was dead to me............Hang in there sweetie, it gets better but you have to work hard at it. Take back who you are and win...............

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZES3nJQYJok&feature=list_related&playnext=1&list=MLGxdCwVVULXeOlW7Vi_6EB8qk9CeMS0TE
deleted_user
deleted_user

I know what your saying we have the same story except mine was my dad and uncle, and I won over them it just took time to get past it. It will pass honey, just hang in there and believe in yourself, I know that you can and will get past this, I just hope you can learn to believe in yourself and that those people were and are very sick people and making miles away from them is the best thing that you can do. So enjoy your new life and make something special of yourself I know you are so do it. Lots of Love to you Kace, I love you girly take good care. Kase, call if you need me I will give you the new number if you want it. Just ask. Love Kacey
deleted_user
deleted_user

Annie, you will get everything you want to, just need to be patient. You are young and have the time and the wherewithal to do whatever you want. If you have a hard time for instance, use your incredible mind to turn that negativity around. And it this gets tiring, you can just do something to rest and recouperate. Life is a journey and we all get to learn to live it. And you are never alone my sweet.
deleted_user
deleted_user

i really HEAR your pain. im 52 and have only recently begun to let go of the stranglehold i kept allowing my past to have on me. it IS hard work(and i started very late in life) but oh so worth it. just know a couple of things. YOU CAN DO IT too, just keep working on it. dont ever give up then he has won and you are not alone. we are here for you!! message me anytime!! blessed be and peace