freedom

During the provincial campaign against sexual abuse I learned  that my extreme nonstop anxiaty was triggerred by my childhood sexual abuse. I saw that and decided to act as if the abuse had not happenned. I ignored the anxiety brought on by the abuse and did that fearful thing, and they were several, anyway. It greatly reduced my anxiety to the point it was gone, for awhile. But there was still that bit of anxiety in excess thart would not go away. Thanks to DS that has disappeared. I was in a group, for persons who were victims of others with personality disorders. One post in one of those groups there was a post that contained an urrl containing an exerpt from a book written by a mental health professional in the United Kingdem. I read that sample and decided I had to get that book. I bought it and read during 2012 about. Before long I realised I was reading on the topic of pathological psychology. The book had a lot of light bulb moments that defined my parent exactly. I then followed the author's suggestion and went  no contact (NC) with the parent I kept reading more after finishing that book. I was facinated. After a bit I forgave the parent. The parent might have a mental health problem. Since this might be a handicap, I pretended it was and forgave realising that handicap or not the parent would not be this way with me if not affected by the handicap or trait of handicap. Several years of NC have passed and I feel liberated and able to lead my life aas I want to pretty well. I'm greatful to DS for providing a place where people like myself can get together and talk and help each other with such common problems. And all without having to pay a cent! Thanks DS!