found journal written by the ow

sounds like shes equivilent 2 me.  like i got no extra love or unique love 4 being the wife.  sucks.  God wants me 2 wait for this 2 b fixed.  to be patient.  i dont want 2 b.  i want 2 get back some of what was stolen from me.  apparently i somehow missed that in every relationship my h has had he would b all in love and then lose interest.  all the time i knew him as friends i was unaware of this or perhaps i had amnesia.  anyway i dont want 2 wait for this 2 work.  I want 2 get out.  kinda.  i want the opportunity 2 b selfish and work out what im feeling.  somehow this yr during the election my husband learned how 2 talk 2 me.  yeah thats great and all but what happens the next time he loses interest.  and i have no guarantee that he wont still decide 2 leave me or cheat.  or i get tired of the cold spells as he called them and i decide 2 leave.