forgiveness, autumn and pain

forgive me but i haven't gone to my last journal.  truly asking forgiveness.  focusing on this time.  being present in the here and now.

we had a cool autumn rain here in Georgia.  calming, soft.......drapes the earth in this dreamy watercolor landscape.  a perfect day to drift and contemplate.

i pulled myself slowly into this day.  waited for a reprieve or a sign to help me rise and conquer one small step at a time.  i prepared a two meal feast for myself.  a small red roasting pan with a chicken breast tidily split in half.  freshly pared potato slices surrounding the meat.  poured chicken gravy over it, foiled the pan and slid it into the oven.  plan to check on it in an hour.

in the meanwhile there is a large pitcher of freshly brewed peach tea cooling on the counter.  a pot of baby carrots are bubbling in a pot of brown sugar flavored water.  a good well rounded southern meal to celebrate this Sunday.  dressed in comfy fall colors.....hair curling up ....whispering in my ear that it's time for a hair cut......

i even put tiny diamond studs in my ears.  just because no one is coming doesn't mean that no one is here.  i am here, God is ever present.....the kitties are curled up sleeping.  the frig is humming companionably along.  i hung the fall wreath on the front door.  ahhhh.  today can be nice.  today can be a good day.

find the peace within, share it with your space.......praise God for every baby step taken.  breathe.........