Forever
The way I feel just about everyday, 98% of the time, I just feel terrible.
Basically, I can be having a great time and then for no reason be upset. I can be watching tv, drawing, or doing something I enjoy and then I just feel terrible. Nothing has to happen, there doesn't have to be a reason. I just start feeling terrible and upset.
So, I try to be by myself so I won't feel so terrible being around people. Being by myself makes me less upset, so I'm just thinking of being by myself all the time so I won't feel as upset.
When I'm feeling terrible I try to calm myself down. But, it's really difficult to try to do something. Like someone is holding you down or caging you up and is making you feel this way. But, Idk what's making me feel this way. I do things like eating healthier, getting enough sleep and I take vitamins because I need to. But, I still feel very terrible for some reason and IDK why.
I like feeling happy and I hate feeling horrible. It's just so upsetting that I can't be happy when I want to. I always have to wait for this feeling to be over. I was happy all last week and before that I was just really depressed for almost a month. It's so irritating and I hate it so much. I've been tryin to help myself. I want to see a therapist but I can't right now because my job barely pays me enough to pay for small bills. I have no money left over to do anything.
IDK what to do. I feel like I'm just gonna be frustrated and depressed forever.
Basically, I can be having a great time and then for no reason be upset. I can be watching tv, drawing, or doing something I enjoy and then I just feel terrible. Nothing has to happen, there doesn't have to be a reason. I just start feeling terrible and upset.
So, I try to be by myself so I won't feel so terrible being around people. Being by myself makes me less upset, so I'm just thinking of being by myself all the time so I won't feel as upset.
When I'm feeling terrible I try to calm myself down. But, it's really difficult to try to do something. Like someone is holding you down or caging you up and is making you feel this way. But, Idk what's making me feel this way. I do things like eating healthier, getting enough sleep and I take vitamins because I need to. But, I still feel very terrible for some reason and IDK why.
I like feeling happy and I hate feeling horrible. It's just so upsetting that I can't be happy when I want to. I always have to wait for this feeling to be over. I was happy all last week and before that I was just really depressed for almost a month. It's so irritating and I hate it so much. I've been tryin to help myself. I want to see a therapist but I can't right now because my job barely pays me enough to pay for small bills. I have no money left over to do anything.
IDK what to do. I feel like I'm just gonna be frustrated and depressed forever.
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