For the young ones.

Apparently Chi went to my father's office today to talk with him. She is not coming not until midnight, I suppose that's when I'll be asleep... Though, last Chi is accusing me of hitting her. I pushed her towards the door wen she was trying to exit while also trying to stay to insult me. I am still so surprised and upset that she was using my illness to get me to become mad. Instead it made me mad and extremely hurt. For the last three years I have tried to become her friend and act like a good step son, but she is evil, its like a bad lifetime movie folding out in front of me. I am so upset by this pain she is pressing her son, me, and my dad with. I am tired of seeing him in pain. He says that he loves her, but I am unsure as to what someone could love in her right now. She used to like to be around dad and be playful, but yet me and her were tranquil and there were no bumps. Now she is extremely jealous and hostile... mostly towards me. I asked my dad about the situation and I wanted to ask if this was all centered around me and he hesitated for a very short moment and then said, well yeah.
 
Later I told him that I could work it out and try to live with my mom for a while, because she is his wife. But he told me no that she is acting against me with no reason. Therefor he did not want me to leave. He told me that this is not my fault. He said that the only thing that might be annoying at times is the fact that I sit on the couch and be lazy on days. This might be because of me and it might be a factor in the cycle of depression that I am in and have been in for sometime now.
 
On a better note my school work has gotten better, I suppose it is because of the distraction from things that are happening at home. Tomorrow I have to post something on my internet class so I don't have to worry about it over the weekend. if anyone has any advice on my situation please forward it to me.
 
Goodnight moon.