for all the different ways

I was struggling tonight with the complex nature of my relationship with a family member.

I was feeling alone after talking on the phone with them. I hadn't talked to anyone today

and this one conversation left me feeling...lacking and struggling.

So, I decided to call my Mom's sister and she always is a bright light to talk to.

We had a good good conversation. I decided to open up with her about my plans to go to the monastery.

As well I just felt the appreciation of our relationship and bravery to talk about things I had been really thinking

about. She is supportive of my move. Then, she also started to share. It was such a good conversation and we both were moved to tears.

I was so grateful I took a chance to call her and communicate my true feelings. What a blessing.

After the call I thought about this family member, that I previously mentioned

and I just kind of realized that all things aside,

I know we love each other..Relationships can just be complex- I'm coming to terms with that ...and I can still appreciate

and love. I sense that both of us wish we could be more like the other in truth.

The aspect I refered to in the title of this post was - that for all the different ways we are as individuals,

With our genetic make ups and experiences and ways of dealing with things as we are, and all the pressures we face

, all bring us together to some how reach out to each other - communicate and share - and hear things the way we need to hear them for all the different ways we are -  - and at times, at least for me, make me wish I were

more like the other - but I know for all the different ways we are we have to be ourselves and cope

the way we were built to cope - and then come together some how and relate and appreciate each other.