Flashback

So I hadn't seen my son in over 2 months since Michelle left me June 20th and I really thought in my mind that I never was going to see my son again. A week and a half ago my parents went to go drop off some of my sons documents to her as a favor to her mother from mine considering both grandma's love their grandson and want to remain neutral. Well when parents got home they told me they had a surprise for me and in ran my son to hug me and he said to me "I love you and I missed you dad", I never quit realized how much I loved him until that night. When he ran to me I coudn't contain myself and tears of joy ran down my face, something good had finally come my way.during the divorce process! I've been so happy this last week and a half having my son and not even thinking about her, until yesterday that is. She asked my mother if he could stay with us due to the deplorable conditions of the ho me she'so staying at, fantastic for me until she decided to show up yesterday to take him out for an hour. Seeing her parked outside just made all those feelings of anger and hate flow right back into my mind and I took 10 steps  back and I broke down on tears. I'm intellectually smart enough to know that things are over between us, its enough seeing her in a picture with someone else but my stupid heart still has feelings for her