First Ultrasound!
Hello my lovelies,
I hope everyone is doing well in your journies. I'm so excited for the ladies that have gotten BFP's and I'm still rooting for ya'll that are in your cycles and are about to start your cycles! There's so much pain and suffering in this IF journey and we all deserve the happiness we desire.
My journey has had so many ups and downs, an emotional roller coaster that never stops, but it all is worth what I got to hear yesterday, which is my babies heartbeat. I was so nervous these past couple of weeks after hearing so many horror stories (I must stop googling on the internet) and I was preparing myself for the worst but hoping for the best. Carmen, the clinic's ultrasound tech was clicking and searching for which seemed like forever,she kept telling me to hold on, she has to look at other tihngs too...LOL...then finally she turned up the volume I got to hear the heartbeat. I cried along with DH who was holding my hand and I still can't believe that I am in the place I am right now. It's surreal, it's magical, it just hasn't hit me just yet. All I can say is that I'm so thankful and I never thought I would be here. I have spoken to God more frequently and I know that he is listening to my prayers. Since I already have high anxiety at times, praying has helped a lot with that. I just remind myself to give it to God when I want so much control of what I can't control.
I know that I told many people who knew about my IVF that I am expecting, but what really irks me is the nosey ass people who feel like they need to gossip about my situation to make thier lives more interesting. For example, I was in the work breakroom the other day, and one of the girls (whom I never told about my IF journey) asked me "How are your appts going?"....seriously? I was so taken back by that and I think it's so rude for people to just pry. A friend of mine must have told her who I've asked to keep secret. Then I hear that people around my office are asking if I'm pregnant. Apparently I trust the wrong people. I know that I probably shouldn't be this mad but my IF journey is very personal to me and it's an extremely sensitive subject for me. It's not something I want everyone to know about and I certainly don't want people to know ths early....
Anywhoo...other than that, things have been good. DH and I had so much fun with our fur babies this weekend and took them to the dog park and a nature walk. I have observed that being at the dog park pretty much takes all of my worries and bad thoughts away, it's so fun to see my little pets having so much fun, warms my heart.
Thank you so much ladies for being her in my darkest hours when no one truley understands how I'm feeling, I can always count on ya'll. Your alway in my prayers.
KJ
I hope everyone is doing well in your journies. I'm so excited for the ladies that have gotten BFP's and I'm still rooting for ya'll that are in your cycles and are about to start your cycles! There's so much pain and suffering in this IF journey and we all deserve the happiness we desire.
My journey has had so many ups and downs, an emotional roller coaster that never stops, but it all is worth what I got to hear yesterday, which is my babies heartbeat. I was so nervous these past couple of weeks after hearing so many horror stories (I must stop googling on the internet) and I was preparing myself for the worst but hoping for the best. Carmen, the clinic's ultrasound tech was clicking and searching for which seemed like forever,she kept telling me to hold on, she has to look at other tihngs too...LOL...then finally she turned up the volume I got to hear the heartbeat. I cried along with DH who was holding my hand and I still can't believe that I am in the place I am right now. It's surreal, it's magical, it just hasn't hit me just yet. All I can say is that I'm so thankful and I never thought I would be here. I have spoken to God more frequently and I know that he is listening to my prayers. Since I already have high anxiety at times, praying has helped a lot with that. I just remind myself to give it to God when I want so much control of what I can't control.
I know that I told many people who knew about my IVF that I am expecting, but what really irks me is the nosey ass people who feel like they need to gossip about my situation to make thier lives more interesting. For example, I was in the work breakroom the other day, and one of the girls (whom I never told about my IF journey) asked me "How are your appts going?"....seriously? I was so taken back by that and I think it's so rude for people to just pry. A friend of mine must have told her who I've asked to keep secret. Then I hear that people around my office are asking if I'm pregnant. Apparently I trust the wrong people. I know that I probably shouldn't be this mad but my IF journey is very personal to me and it's an extremely sensitive subject for me. It's not something I want everyone to know about and I certainly don't want people to know ths early....
Anywhoo...other than that, things have been good. DH and I had so much fun with our fur babies this weekend and took them to the dog park and a nature walk. I have observed that being at the dog park pretty much takes all of my worries and bad thoughts away, it's so fun to see my little pets having so much fun, warms my heart.
Thank you so much ladies for being her in my darkest hours when no one truley understands how I'm feeling, I can always count on ya'll. Your alway in my prayers.
KJ
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Yay!!! I was thinking about you yesterday :) I bet that was the best sound you\'ve ever heard!! You give me so much hope! I\'m so happy that you and dh were able to share such an amazing milestone together. Screw your co-workers! As I always say, those who are lucky enough to be oblivious about IF are ignorant when it comes to questions and responses about pregnancy. I would feel the same way but don\'t let them bring down this happiness you finally get to experience. I\'m positive they are not worth it. So happy for you :)
Yay!!!! So happy you got to hear the heart beat! :)
Yay congrats. Sorry about the work place gossip.. I am with you, its a pretty private thing and you don\'t want the world to know at this point that you have a healthy little one growing in there.
Enjoy this momma!
Yay!! Amazing!! I\'m so happy for you and that is amazing that you got to hear the heartbeat. I\'m so anxious for my appt on Thursday and I hope I hear the same thing. Like you, I\'ve been talking to God a lot lately, which seems to calm my fears.
Sorry about the office gossip. I know it\'s happening at my work too, especially since I was the only one not drinking last week when we went out of town to our operations location and everyone kept asking why!! I had to make some silly excuses that probably sounded like fibs, but oh well.
So happy for you!!
Congrats on hearing the heartbeat! :) :) :)
Yeah unfortunately the work crew can be a hard battle. Some have to know because of appts but it isn\'t something you would share otherwise.
Congrats Mama!! I am so glad to hear the u/s went well!! I know it must be hard, but try to ignore the people around you, they will never understand what IF is truly like to deal with. They will never understand that their questions, comments and prying can be hurtful. This is your time to focus on your growing family.
Thinking of you and praying for a happy and healthy 9 months!
Yay! So happy to hear- it\'s a beautiful sound isn\'t it!?
I\'m so happy to hear things went well. That\'s an awesome update :)
That is wonderful that you heard the HB, that is a great milestone to pass!! I am never surprised that people pry and comment on IF, most people have no grace at all, but I am sorry you have to deal with that!! XO
Congrats, so happy everything looked good. It\'s such a wonderful step.
I really can\'t believe how rude some people can be about these things, it\'s makes IF that much harder to handle.
What a wonderful journal. Congrats on hearing the heartbeat- it\'s such a huge milestone. Sorry about the stupid office gossip. Focus on your little miracle and enjoy this incredible time. I\'m so happy for you :)
Thank you so much ladies! You all have been a God send and I am so thankful for your kind words and support. And for those of you going through your cycles, I\'m praying for ya\'ll! ((HUGS))
Great sound. So happy for you!!