first thing scribbles
woke up this morning and made coffee
and drank it in bed.
Felt an unusual sense of independence after yesterday's writings
but then felt like reaching out to family by text
to say good morning.
I didn't feel the permission to do it -
I felt that since I reached out yesterday - doing it today too
was too much - and then I thought about everyone out there
and we all have to deal with it too - it gave me another sense
of humanity and boundary as well -
I reached out to a few people (not family members)
and I kind of understood how precious it was. the valuing of it - though I did before -
made it more poignant and also relief giving.
Yet then I struggled with my alone time again
and I thought about everyone else - and after having
the paradoxic nature of my thoughts and feelings - I just
realized we're all wrangling with our humanity to a certain
extent - some more than others.
I have an aggression in me - and yet also a feelings and rational side.
It's the mix of it that I think we are all challenged with...
Sending peace
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Hola Marcos,
I like your honesty. Honesty & kindness you have (good qualities & refreshing in this crazy world).
You’re prob sleeping as I write this & maybe Blues up running on his wheel hehe just kiddin :)
Big hugs <3
Thanks lil missy! I’m up now and Blue is on my lap, while the news is on.