First Step

I decided it was time to take the next big step for me. So, I went a head and made an appointment at an infertility clinic that ironically my mom used over 30 years ago. I know it made my mom sad because I think she feels guilty about all of this. My mom had a severe case of endometriosis where one entire side of the falopian tubes didn't work. That had to reconstruct her body so that one side would function and she could actually conceive a baby. Well she had three. What really struck me was on the phone the receptionist asked me who refered me to their insitution. When I said my mom she said, "oh you are one of our babies". I have never thought of it like that. Because of a place like this I was born. Now ironically I have to go to the same place so that I could have the same happiness my mom was able to get.
When I was 18 my mom took me to the doctor to have me checked at that age to see if I displayed any signs as she did and she had them check my insides completely but nothing showed.
I am so scared about what the doctors will say or come back with because deep down I know it is me. Before my husband and I started trying we both had physicals but my husband had himself checked. The doc who really didn't have bed side manners told my husband and I that he could get any "normal" woman pregnant. I hope I don't have to look my husband in the face and tell him because of me he will never have a child. My appointment is March 15th and I am just so scared.