First Hardest Thing To Tell Mom & Family

                                 (((( TRIGGER WARNING ))))At this point in time i don't know what day is is or what time it is. I'm so sleep deprived i can't think. I'm trying to sleep but that's hard to do when you're chained to the flour like some animal naked and cold. I had some movement but not much but just enough to reach a thin mattress that looked like it was eaten up by rats that they must have used for their nests. The smell of it was so bad it was making me dry heave. But it was better then laying on a cold wood filthy floor. I guess i fell asleep for ten twenty minutes i just don't know. I didn't even hear him come into the room but the next thing i knew i was doused with water or at the moment thought it was water. I didn't know water smelled but when he lit a blow torch i knew then that water was gasoline. I began screaming at the top of my lungs just screaming and screaming. In between my screams i can hear him say laughing in a laugh that is hard to describe saying..... GO AHEAD AND SCREAM, SCREAM SCREAM YOUR HEAD OFF NO ONE WILL HEAR YOU!! I said go ahead you want to do it. He was still threatening with the torch to set the mattress and me on fire. Now im saying to try to get him to stop am saying ( What, What what do you want? He disappeared for a bit but by now the gasoline was starting to burn my skin and i started to panic a bit and was thinking it will ignite. Now he is back and im thinking now what what now is going on. He started to pore bottle water over me several times and began to wash me. But washing me in a sexual manner increased me to be stunned. He had gotten rid of the mattress that was now doused with gasoline and put out the window. Standing there now naked and wet cold began to dry me kept telling me how nice i looked and spent a lot of time down there and said have to make sure you clean here. WHAT DO YOU WANT? this was the theme throughout. WHAT DO YOU WANT? He push me to the floor and spread my leg out and began to rub my genitals and penis and this is what i want. Not saying anything he began to suck me and licking my testicals and leaning me backwards to finger me analy. Now my mom said stop.. Mom there's more. But i think it can wate.