First Day of Spring Anniversary

Tomorrow, March 20 is not just the first day of Spring.  It is the anniversary of the day Stan and I re-connected after a number of years of not having seen each other, and that chance meeting (or maybe not chance, but destiny) let to our getting married a few months later.  Nobody else can really understand the significance of this day except us.  We celebrated it every year.  Other days like birthdays, wedding anniversary, etc. are understood by all of us as we all went through them, but this day was just mine and Stan's.  Last year was the "first" and I don't remember feeling sad, but this year I fee so terribly alone!  The only other person on this earth who would "get" this day, is Stan, and he is no longer here.  I don't normally give in to self-pity, but I am today; this just unexpectedly hurts so much!