First Anniversary
Tomorrow will be the first anniversary of Brad's death. I have actually done pretty well the past few days, I've controled my crying and stayed pretty positive. That was until the last half hour. Well actually come to think about it my anxiety has been pretty high today. But in the last few minutes that gut wrenching pain in my chest has come back and I can feel the tears trying to fill my eyes. I never imagined my life without him, I honest didn't believe I could make it without him, yet now I've gone a whole year without him.
I miss everything about him. His smile, his ambition, his stories, his love for his daughte, and my son, I even miss him driving me nuts! I could go on and on. I'm still angry, this isn't how it's supposed to be, it's not fair. How can I still want to scream after a year? Isn't it ironic how the true test of how much someone means to you is how much you miss them when they're gone.
I'm Going to try really hard to keep going because that's what he would want me to do. The past few years have been increasingly difficult. I'm more than ready for a break. I need 2015 to be a better year.
I miss everything about him. His smile, his ambition, his stories, his love for his daughte, and my son, I even miss him driving me nuts! I could go on and on. I'm still angry, this isn't how it's supposed to be, it's not fair. How can I still want to scream after a year? Isn't it ironic how the true test of how much someone means to you is how much you miss them when they're gone.
I'm Going to try really hard to keep going because that's what he would want me to do. The past few years have been increasingly difficult. I'm more than ready for a break. I need 2015 to be a better year.
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