Firsts
I know I am only 3 months into this horrible part of my life's journey. ( not quite even 3 yet)
I am sitting in a hotel room in Overland Park, KS. I brought the boys and 2 of their friends here for a drum clinic by one of their favoire drummers, Chris Adler. I chose to just stay in the hotel that Jeff and I always stayed in when we came to Overland Park for his Neurologist appointments. Now that I'm in this room by myself, I'm wondering if it was a good idea? I miss him so much!
The drive here took almost 4 hours. The boys had their ipods, music, laptops, movies, etc going. So nobody noticed the tears streaming down my cheeks as I drove through the FLINT HILLS of Kansas. Jeff always told me he could be a hermit and just live out there somewhere where nobody would ever find him. He'd fish and hunt and be happy! He use to take me on day trips and we'd drive for hours up and down the roads through the hills. Once we took the 4 year old Grandaughter for a day of fishing.
Today was a day of firsts that I knew I needed to get over. And I'm glad I did it with the boys and their friends.
But, I missed Jeff so much!
I am sitting in a hotel room in Overland Park, KS. I brought the boys and 2 of their friends here for a drum clinic by one of their favoire drummers, Chris Adler. I chose to just stay in the hotel that Jeff and I always stayed in when we came to Overland Park for his Neurologist appointments. Now that I'm in this room by myself, I'm wondering if it was a good idea? I miss him so much!
The drive here took almost 4 hours. The boys had their ipods, music, laptops, movies, etc going. So nobody noticed the tears streaming down my cheeks as I drove through the FLINT HILLS of Kansas. Jeff always told me he could be a hermit and just live out there somewhere where nobody would ever find him. He'd fish and hunt and be happy! He use to take me on day trips and we'd drive for hours up and down the roads through the hills. Once we took the 4 year old Grandaughter for a day of fishing.
Today was a day of firsts that I knew I needed to get over. And I'm glad I did it with the boys and their friends.
But, I missed Jeff so much!
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