finnally went to ymca tue nov 2 2010

well, i have been busy today. i got up early and went and VOTED yay for me. b.f came over last night and i got my meds and cooked donner. i have been sleeping soo much i had to do something. i didnt think about it i just went to the ymca. i got on a tredmill and it wouldnt stop, it was very embarising. thought i was going to stroke out./ it was very scary. finnaly got someone to show me how to use stuff. i was on it way too long i hurt now and it will be better later. should have gone swimming, but its cold and didnt have anythig w/ me. aunt couldnt go saw her new house and room its so pretty. son fixed someones computer at school so he is going to make a little money yay. im very tired, havnt ate anything yet. havnt taken a xanex yet so im very shaky. going to go take it now. wanted to get on here before he gets back. he is so intelegent, but has absolutly no common sence. just like dear old mom. i wish he would get his comfidence up. i try to praise him but we fight so much. its very hard wene you have no money and i get sooo mad at him. i wish he would try to get a job or something and not drink so much. i am so worried about my kids j has the gout again. havnt seen him in forever. my life is so hard. i do feel good having worked out, but im going to be so sore later i just know by how i feel now. my foot and knees hurt so bad. i dont know how i let myself get this fat. i hate my body so much. have to get this colestorol down. am going to group and shrink this week. next week and m.d. next week. have to get to a foot doc. there are so many things wrong w/me. i take moore pills than anyone in the family. i practicly live at pharmacy. had to switch to reg deoderent cause of the rash from the clinical. it doesnt work well, have pit stains gross. i realy hate that. oh well, what ya ganna so. at least i dont burn under arms anymoore. think i shoud write them. ok, have to go take my meds. moore tommorow.....