finnally went to ymca

well, i finnally went to pool w/ my aunt. im so fat, my suit doesnt even fit anymoore. i feel tired but good. its going to take a long time to loose this weight. i am so shy and backwards, dont want to go by myself. ive been up sence 3 a.m. had to take bro to train staition at 4 a.m. im soo tired. we were at ymca at 6a.m. ive never been out that early. i realy need to go every day. aunt doesnt want to go tommorow. i wish i was well and felt good enogh to go by myself. had to cancell coc appt for tommorow. i was going to try to drive, but asdĀ  ussual, i chickend out. its getting very tence here again. son is supposed to be looking gfor job, im very deppressed. im not giving him anything. tying to be very hard, its so hard for me to be like this. need to go to my theripistr. just cant seem to do much at all. i wish i was healthy.trying to get aunt to join the water arobics. i could do it if she goes w/ me. hot flashes are sooo bad lately. im burning up. will be going to b.f.s this weekend. but at least i went swimming finnally. ok, son at school. i need to clean my apt, dont want to do anything. very tired. ok, i guess thats all for now, will maybe get back on later. ok, byn for now...

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annieheart
annieheart

Good for you,getting out there and going swimming.I hope you have a good night.