Finding my religion

Over the past 2 yrs of being on DS I have come across so many different types of ppl. This has really made me think about myself, and where I stand. I for one have never considered myself to be a religious person. I beleive in God, but have never really thought about much else. I usually percieve myself as being the same as who I'm speeking to, almost like a camelflage so I don't get put down and belittled. I realize this is only me being ignorant. My one true reason is becuase of my lack of education with religion. Growing up their was no talk of God in my house, and the only bible around here is mine i recently got free from a stranger who handed it to me at my old univeristy. I think when he handed it to me gently in my hands, I finally realized how blind I have been. I need to find out what that book means to me, or if it means anything to me at all. For most of my life I have secretely questioned how someone could worship something with so much hatred and violance in it. But how can i really truely formulate an opinion if I have never read it? i'm only going off of what I've been told. How bias of me! I get so annoyed at ppl who make uneducated opinions, and I don't want to be one of those people. As I get older more, and more people are asking me; "what religion are you?" "what do you believ in?" These should not be offensive questions, but they have always been for me becuase of my embarresment from not having an answer. i've tried to read the Bible, but I can't understand any of it. I have gone to church but couldn't sit still. My mind wonders around and I have a tenency to question everything. It's going to take some time, but I hope someday i find my religion...