finding my focus

I went to work this morning...and it was a good productive day...

I came home to the apartment, and played with Blue. Made some lunch

and hopped in the shower to get the grime of the workday off.

I then decided to do some errands, bought household sundries at the Ralphs market

and then went to the Starbucks for a treat.

I've been slowly noticing lately that it's real important to have a focus for myself...it has come to me

slowly - in a different kind of way..

I don't know how to explain it - but lately I have been thinking more and more about

survival and I've been thinking about that in terms of running my life but also in terms

of finding a mate. 

Anyways today after work I found myself nearly floundering again in extreme appetite

satisfying and without a focus. The outside world was overpowering and every thing

was bigger than me...does that make sense?

I realized I needed and could apply a kind of focus

for myself, god or something else,

so that I could just have a reason,rationality my day - and so far it's truly a lifegiving,

healthgiving thing. 

Anyways got a meeting in a moment. Will write more later.

peace,

Mark