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Mood:  Ok

finding it hard to be alone

Yesterday I was twisting and turning mentally - trying to answer questions


and it was just all too much.


I decided to just have self compassion - and it lessened


my burdens.


I'm here alone this morning also and I've started to twist and contort again...


and I guess I am just realizing that I have a hard time being alone...


I shouldn't feel bad about that - 


I'll give myself the good stuff. :)

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Sunshinegirl0228
Sunshinegirl0228

oxoxoxo
malibumark
malibumark

Thanks sunshine!!
SensitiveHoboLady
SensitiveHoboLady

I always read quotes about being alone or loneliness or this or that and they can kind of make a person wilt. It’s like the age old existentialist sort of questions that make it all unbearable.

I used to be really social. Life hardened me to be unable to trust. As I go out in the world now these days, I have to master the balance of being open to possibility but choosing wisely. Most of the time, it’s too much and I stick to myself. I’m trying to get better.

You’re not alone in feeling alone. Isn’t that a song lyric?
malibumark
malibumark

Thanks Nikki!!
malibumark
malibumark

Thanks again Nikki! Your response here really resonated and was so impactfully relevant!
SensitiveHoboLady
SensitiveHoboLady

I’m glad it helped Mark. For what it’s worth, I spent my Sunday working on data projects for work. Thats not healthy. But it at least made today really productive for a larger group of people outside of myself and I didn’t have time to wallow in my aloneness.

I’m relaxing now with a glass of wine, but I know I need to make sweeping changes in my life. Where to begin, where to begin.
malibumark
malibumark

Tiny bites Nikki
arfie
arfie

let's hear it for the healing power of self-compassion! ! ! as a bonus, the self-compassion gives me more compassion to share with the world.

again i feel the problem envy of living alone through the window of my currently over-populated life. i remember the problems of living alone well enough, but ? ? ? what i wouldn't give for a week or three of alone time right now. . . it has been around 3.5 years since i inherited my three orphans and it still feels like a shock to my system.

alas, the absence of isolation hasn't changed my mental twisting and turning much. i still torture myself with the never-ending questions, etc. self-compassion still needed.
malibumark
malibumark

(((((Arfie)))))) thanks