finding acceptance

How do you accept that your family will never ever ever ever provide you with the healthy love and mental support you need? How do you accept that? I just want to know how. How do I finally fucking get that people in this family are nuts, they are addicts, they are alcoholics, they are belligerent children. All of them. I am, as I always have been, the only adult in this family. And I love them all very very much and I know they love me and I know they try their best. That's why I've hung in there so long trying to change them- well trying to help them change- but that's not fair of me- they don't want to change. I'm the one who's different. I'm the one who has all these issues. They are more than happy to just ignore life and escape. They seem to not see any other way and they seem to have accepted that. I'm the one with the problem. So how? How the fuck do I accept that I will never get any form of emotional nourishment from my immediate family? How do I stop being angry about it? I just really have no fucking idea how. I just don't want to be pissed off anymore. I don't want to be sad anymore. I know they're trying their best. I know they can't help it. I just have to accept it but I have no fucking idea how.

If you are reading this and you have any suggestions I would love to hear them.