finding a remedy and some happiness

I was doing really well I thought and my spirits were high. I was confident

and was at ease.

I went out this morning with some folks who were really not

in the same place as I was. They were yelling at each other

and just throwing a lot of agression out there.

As I stayed with them, I found myself questioning myself more

and more - feeling worse about the idea that maybe I was some

how inconsiderate.

I came home and told my sister and she offered some 'meditations' on spotify.

I have to tell you, they were great! I just cuddled in bed and listened to them.

Not feeling like I  had to 'do them well' or 'perfectly' I just listened and gleaned

what I could.

I am not always ready to think about what my remedy will be when I get

stuck in the dumps. This was a great eye-opener - I found some happiness

by listening to them. 

The center of my mindset may have changed but I can still use this resource,

this remedy, as something to turn to in the future.

If anyone wants I will share the meditations. They're on my Iphone

at the moment - but I can tranfer them over to you if you like.

I may forget sometimes that the world is not a perfect or welcoming

place and that there are tough relationships to deal with - but

I can find some moments of happiness to keep me going 'out there'

and taking care of life.

Peace,

Mark