Finally made the decision

After going back and forth in my mind, for the past couple of weeks,  over the decision of whether to quite my second job. To the point that I believe is what is making me feel ill and having my chest hurt over the stress, I have decided to quite.
Reasons being, that the few hours that they were giving me and the distance of the clients. The little money I made with the time I would be doing, would mostly be going in gas. Even after asking them to give me assignments closer to home.
I am going to really work on applying myself to my school work. Education was very important to Paul, he had a masters in education, taught chemistry and math, he so loved what he did. I believe that is one of the reasons, he got so depressed towards the end, because he was not able to go back to teaching, because of his health. When we got together almost two years ago and he found out that I had always wanted to go back to school, he was so excited.
So I truly believe that he would really want me to stay in school, do the best I can, and see where it takes me. Like I said in my last entry, he seemed to have more faith in me, then I have in myself.
So if start really working on my faith and trust in myself and budget my money, I should be ok. I can still look for another second job, that is closer and would be worth the time.
And most importantly I have the faith and encourgement of my family and friends, including my DS friends, which means the world to me.

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You might also talk to the school to see if you might qualify for grants...or public assistance of some sort, to attend school.

Academia lives inside it\'s own self serving bubble, oftentimes, but there is money for people to train or retrain for the workforce.
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I definitely know how tough those decisions about work and school are!! I agonized all summer about my business until I finally decided to downsize and closed one portion of it all together. Lot less stress now. I will also be returning to school in January if I don\'t talk myself out of it. I have noticed several others here at DS who are in school or thinking of returning, so we will just have to keep encouraging each other!
Wishing you the best of luck!
Angie
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I am so glad that you were finally able to make the decision. Check out the FAFSA website and see if you can qualify for grants. Also, the schools have wonderful financial aid departments. My daughter has received grants for her first two years of college. What a load off of my mind. Like you said, you can still get a second job but make it worth your while to be there. Get something closer to home. I know you have chosen the correct path!

Ronda
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Great.......and there are classes you can take on line if that suits your needs right now.........sounds like a good plan....
hugs
Lori
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Sounds to me like you are making the right decision. Good for you and good luck in school! Do your best!
LSMS
LSMS

Good Luck Karen, I\'m glad you followed your heart and made a decision. Not don\'t look back and enjoy the new journey. I wish you the best.

Linda
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Karen, it sounds like you are making good decisions. I am sure Paul would be pleased you are continuing your education. I think it is extremely important that we continue to learn, it keeps our lives more vital in my opinion promotes better health. Good for you.
Eddie
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Good luck...it seems you know what you need to do and you are doing it. You should feel very good about yourself! Hugs!!!
pathoflife
pathoflife

Karen,

You have thought through many scenarios, so you have weighed the pros and cons. If you have peace with your decision, go forward with no regrets. Be the best student you can be and that Paul knew you WOULD be. Blessings to you. TJ
doyew
doyew

Wishing you the best as your pursue your education. Good luck in all your endeavors.
Doye
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Karen, sounds like you have made a very good decision...I feel we are never to old to learn things. Our minds are like sponges that like to soak up information. And if you prosper from it then that would be wonderful...You go girl..Hugs Ellen