Finally made the decision

After going back and forth in my mind, for the past couple of weeks,  over the decision of whether to quite my second job. To the point that I believe is what is making me feel ill and having my chest hurt over the stress, I have decided to quite.
Reasons being, that the few hours that they were giving me and the distance of the clients. The little money I made with the time I would be doing, would mostly be going in gas. Even after asking them to give me assignments closer to home.
I am going to really work on applying myself to my school work. Education was very important to Paul, he had a masters in education, taught chemistry and math, he so loved what he did. I believe that is one of the reasons, he got so depressed towards the end, because he was not able to go back to teaching, because of his health. When we got together almost two years ago and he found out that I had always wanted to go back to school, he was so excited.
So I truly believe that he would really want me to stay in school, do the best I can, and see where it takes me. Like I said in my last entry, he seemed to have more faith in me, then I have in myself.
So if start really working on my faith and trust in myself and budget my money, I should be ok. I can still look for another second job, that is closer and would be worth the time.
And most importantly I have the faith and encourgement of my family and friends, including my DS friends, which means the world to me.