Finally Good Again

Today I had a really good day. I woke up early (before 5:45am) but I feel okay. I didn't fall back asleep in the morning but I did take a nap later in the day. I went to my therapist and things went better than I thought. She wasn't too mad at me for not calling her when I went into the hospital, but she did tell me I need to journal more and not keep all my feelings on the inside. I was trying to journal, but couldn't think of anything to say. She said I was focusing on the superficial things, like what I ate and stuff instead of focusing on what triggered me. I'm pretty sure it was calling my cousin and she started talking about the anniversary of her mom's death and it got me thinking about my dad and his death, which sent me into a downward spiral. I just got things under control again. I feel better after talking to her, which is good. I don't know what's going on with my health insurance. I went to the clinic today to pay a bill, and it said my hospital bill was paid, but it was less than my copay. I don't know, all I know is that I'm not going to complain if they pay it and I don't have to worry about it. As far as I know, it's paid and that's it. 
I also went to go volunteer for a couple hours today and that went better too. I got there and I knew what to expect a bit better since I had been there before and knew the kind of questions that I was going to be asked to translate. I don't have a migraine tonight like I've been having for the last couple of weeks. I do have a slight headache, but it's manageable. I think it's only there since I'm thinking about a headache. I got to help the girl there translate into Spanish and it did make me feel better about myself. The last time I was there I didn't feel that confident since I was having problems translating. I went home and thought about it for a while (and beat myself up some) and thought of better ways to try and say what I had been trying to say. I'm going to go back there tomorrow and help out with their big health fair that I was handing out fliers for, just when I wake up and it's after 8am I'm going to go over there.
I hope I don't wake up at 6am again. I did fall asleep around 10, so I got just under 8 hours of sleep. I'm surprised that I feel so good but not manic, but I just started on new sleeping pills so I have to get adjusted to them. It could just be that Geo came to bed at the wrong time and I couldn't get comfortable and fall back asleep, but I think it was more of that I was just ready to get up. I hope I don't sleep 12 hours tonight, but if I do I will understand. I get swings of sleep lately, so I have to take what I can get. 
Food was okay today... I'm a bit over my calories, but I was still low on them yesterday so it's not too bad. I had a Subway Steak and Cheese sandwich that killed me. I loved it, though, so it's not too bad. I binged on salad, I had like 6 cups of salad today with Greek Vinegarette dressing.... so yummy! I want some more, but that would put me way over my calories and I'm not really hungry, so I have to save it for another day. I just love salad. Stress was low, sleep okay, mood good.

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ZECILKL
ZECILKL

it\'s great that you are feeling better even w/o 12 hours of sleep.
congrats on feeling more comfortable with the volunteering. It\'s terrific that you are able to translate. I admire you for that.
ZECILKL
ZECILKL

it\'s great that you are feeling better even w/o 12 hours of sleep.
congrats on feeling more comfortable with the volunteering. It\'s terrific that you are able to translate. I admire you for that.
deleted_user
deleted_user

Your feeling much better now and that is great, the voulnteering is going good and that is a plus as well, is would seem as though your world is starting to get back to normal, yea, I am happy for you.
ann54
ann54

what an upbeat journal, im so happy. things seem to be falling into place more and even though you woke up early, your ok, awesome. i want to tell you how much you do in helping people, purely out of your want to do so. the world needs more people like you. hugss