fighting weakness....

in stories i've read when they speak of weakness they often refer to a newborn foal.....struggling to find his feet, to overcome the shakiness that comes with entering a whole new world.

i think foals are so beautiful, small miracles.......so why do i feel shame after a week in bed, struggling to find my feet?  it takes so little to come undone.  beleagered strength.

my face is wringing wet after only a few minutes outside.  trying to work on a small list of chores......i managed to put a magnetic door attachment on an upper cabinet.  you'd think it was like taking on Kangchenju or K2.......i got the supplies a week ago....spray paint, a strip of corner round, wood glue, super glue......

the bathroom mirror looks sorry at the bottom, the silver paint has worn off over the years.......so i thought to come up with a solution.  i measured the area 4 times.  i figure if a carpenter measures twice to cut once, i'd need to double that plan....fibro fog demands extra care.  i got a dark metallic brown that matches the metal in the light fixture.....it's drying in the sun right now.  it will need a couple more coats, but in this heat i should be able to glue the strip on later today.

putting on the magnetic door attachment was hard. my grip is pretty pitiful......then i remembered i have a small drill in the garage.........God did me a total solid and I found it easily....first place I looked.  AWESOME...high fiving the CREATOR WITH THANKS!

it took a bit of finagling, but that's done.........i am so proud.  every little thing i can do myself means alot.  this week i was feeling sorry.......physically.......and then the mental sorry got all worked up.......thinking what is the point. ... sorry for me & how. 

i let the new corner round sit against the top of the bathroom countertop in it's primed state - it looked good......not the color, but as a solution to hide the aging issue.  so simple, why didn't i think of this before?  .....brain fog.  uh huh, oh yeah.

i touched up the blue table, the white wicker chair.....the giant metal leaf.  little things. sara says when it comes to paint her momma is NOT SCARED at all. 

i need to pick up at least a dozen cardboard boxes & wrap things in paper.  i put all the decorative things in big clear plastic boxes to declutter quickly but didn't pack them for a move.......so if i make it out today i hope to get boxes & a couple of sunday papers.  return a necklace to beall's.....honey do's.  i'd love a pedicure but hmmm......will i make it outta here in time?  we'll see.  soooo hot!  89 degrees outside....feels even hotter~

hiring someone to do chores is hard.  the first guy wasn't a very hard worker, he did things but not to my satisfaction.  i used to manage three industrial warehouses at one time, so i'm pretty good at assesing how long it takes to do work. -------slacking isn't high on my list of things that impress.  i could have done everything the first guy did in less than two hours (if i were well, he got paid for four, but NEVER AGAIN)

i got a 2nd guy to come by  ---for some reason I thought he would be doing some of the work that day....but no.  he said he'd work up a bid first & come back another day.  ......my toilet seat is very loose, i asked him if he could tighten it......if he was a caring kind of person he could have tightened it as a matter of safety.  he refused to do that or anything else that day.  i offered him cash on the spot - he said no.  ok........huh.  then he sat at my table for two hours after chatting.......and finally asked me for the job.  i said i would have to think it over.  why?  because he took up three hours of time ...both his and mine, he could have made $70 before he left but wouldn't even try.  we just don't think alike....the other reason?  he told me the total job could take anywhere from 3 hours to 5 hours to all day.  he works hourly, if he can't figure out his time better than that how can i have confidence in him to work efficiently......and contractors wonder why they get a bad rap....

enough of my griping.......felt good to get it off my chest.  wish i could find a couple of responsible decent honest folks and get some of this stuff done already.  frustrating.

sorry forgot to quit GRIPING.  i miss you, i'm praying for you....for you, for your health, for your loved ones......for your faith to be steadfast in the midst of storms........for you to know that i care very much and you are not forgotten.

annie, rio and this small sparrow say hi and send out hugggggggs ! mwah!!!!!!!!!!!!!