fiction and not fiction
my counselor wants me start thinking about end of life care. she says its important that I feel I have some control and say so I told her I will wrote 2. one real and one I wish could be real. she say I shouldn't wrote the one iv wish but should only right a real one. they will both be short because I don't think I'm writing it right with all the things she wants.
non ficyion
I don't want to hurt to much. I don't want to be in the hospital so iv want to go to the hospice house. when everything slows down inside and stops working I don't want any more feedings and I don't want to hurt.
fiction
I want to be at home in a bed with a family around me. I want a mom to lay with me and not let me be alone. I don't want to hurt to much. I want to here storys so my mind thinks good things only. and when it's time I want someone to hold my hand so I'm not alone.
I wonder whats going to hapen after. I no it wont matter but I still wonder. I mean I no there wont be a funeral but will I be put in a coffin amd in the ground or will they burn me and throw away whats left. what happens?
I guess that will just be the end. like I never even hapened. I don't think I was suppose to happen and maybe this is the way the world or god or whatever is fixing its mistake
non ficyion
I don't want to hurt to much. I don't want to be in the hospital so iv want to go to the hospice house. when everything slows down inside and stops working I don't want any more feedings and I don't want to hurt.
fiction
I want to be at home in a bed with a family around me. I want a mom to lay with me and not let me be alone. I don't want to hurt to much. I want to here storys so my mind thinks good things only. and when it's time I want someone to hold my hand so I'm not alone.
I wonder whats going to hapen after. I no it wont matter but I still wonder. I mean I no there wont be a funeral but will I be put in a coffin amd in the ground or will they burn me and throw away whats left. what happens?
I guess that will just be the end. like I never even hapened. I don't think I was suppose to happen and maybe this is the way the world or god or whatever is fixing its mistake
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It will not be like you never even happened. You may not realize it, but you have had an impact on people here and I\'m sure others as well. For whatever it\'s worth, I\'m sorry that the outlook is so bad.
I will always remember your story. Your physical body will be gone but your memory will stay with those of us who read your journal or who knew you in person, like your brother. You will not be forgotten.
Part of your end of life care can sometimes include what you want to have done with your body. Ask your counselor if you get to choose? Do you want to be cremated or would you rather be placed in a coffin and buried? Are you able to donate your body to science to help others going through what you have gone through? What do you want? If your body is cremated, is there a special place where you would like your ashes scattered? Does your brother want your ashes?
Also did you know they have audiobooks? I know it\'s not the same thing as having someone there reading to you. But maybe if your counselor or someone could find some audiobooks you could at least listen to them that way? Some of the narrators are really good, they have really good voices. The actor who plays Professor Snape in the Harry Potter movies, he also reads for audiobooks and his voice is really great for audiobooks.
I think if you haven\'t made any specific plans for what to be done with your body after you die, I think what happens is the county or state cremate your remains and then they store them for a certain period of time to allow next of kin to claim them. Then after a period of time if no one claims the remains they are buried in a community plot or where I am living since we are so near the ocean the ashes are put into the sea. But I\'m sure these procedures vary state to state and even county to county. So really your counselor might know better what happens.