Feelings of Ugh
As I type this I'm an hour removed from my last final of the semester. I now have a two week break before I take my one summer course.
I should be at the very least relieved. Instead, I'm trying to relax now only to find that I can't. There's just too much that I want to have back.
I had more stress-outs than I figured I would have all year.
I had sleeping problems for long enough that I missed two class sessions because I couldn't stay awake. And one of those misses definitely came back to bite me in the intro to law final I just took (not that the professor should be sympathetic because he should not be).
I couldn't get over my trust issues anywhere near enough to seek out all the help that I needed once my search for on-campus tutoring crashed out. I mean, I did get some, but it wasn't nearly enough and I had to hope that the girl who did help me was in the chat room, which is nowhere near best.
And those are just the problems I feel like sharing.
I'm already worried about the fall right now. So tonight there won't be a celebration. It will feel more like mourning over what went wrong instead.
I should be at the very least relieved. Instead, I'm trying to relax now only to find that I can't. There's just too much that I want to have back.
I had more stress-outs than I figured I would have all year.
I had sleeping problems for long enough that I missed two class sessions because I couldn't stay awake. And one of those misses definitely came back to bite me in the intro to law final I just took (not that the professor should be sympathetic because he should not be).
I couldn't get over my trust issues anywhere near enough to seek out all the help that I needed once my search for on-campus tutoring crashed out. I mean, I did get some, but it wasn't nearly enough and I had to hope that the girl who did help me was in the chat room, which is nowhere near best.
And those are just the problems I feel like sharing.
I'm already worried about the fall right now. So tonight there won't be a celebration. It will feel more like mourning over what went wrong instead.
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I can totally relate to these feelings, as what you\'re going through caused me to completely drop out of college my second time around a few years ago. I admitted defeat then and continue to have my regrets to this day, as the folks in my class are now planning their graduation ceremonies and I am not.
I would celebrate the fact that you completed your semester and are going to have the summer to regroup, make some changes, get some support, and be ready to roll again in the fall. It\'s a chapter now finished. Just turn the page; no need to close the book.
I\'m here if you need anything. I\'ve got some stuff I need to get off my chest as well. Just trying to work myself up to it.
Jill