feeling ok

Well as i called is last night my boyfriend called me drunk and started spouiting off about how much he loves me but he didnt mean to hit on other girls that night and other random shit so this morning when he called me i dumped his ass. Aa=ctually for one hundred percent did it. I was feelign strong and confident and i feel it slipping a bit now but that is why i came on here to journal it out. Ive been going through this too much lately and i feel like his words and actions arent adding up i feel like their have been a bunch of lies told and now they are unravelling. Imean what can you do its one thing to be in a relationship and put up with abuse and all that but if theirs broken trust theres nothing there anymore. I mean he isnt the cheating type but neither are the bazillion other people who go out get black up drunk and wakeup in the morning not remembering shit. The funny thing is he doesnt even realise how dumb he is when he drinks last night he was throwing up on the phone with me and then peed his pants yud think someone would wakeup the next day and be like omg thats embarassing nope not him he thought it was kind of funny. L ike are you 16? your 23 years old grow up. Its just amazing to me how people docnt see how their drinking effects their lives and the lives of other people around them. Yah he claims so what i onyl drink once a week. Yeah you drink to the point that your blackiout dont remember shit and piss ur pants and barf everywhere but thats not a problem right? you only do it once a week. like who areu kidding u do have a problem its called binge drinking! Im just glad so far today im not filled with that feeling of doom and gloom anxiety brings on and codependency i feel pretty strong for standing up for myself im just hoping it lasts for my own mental sake. well im gunna play an online poker game hit the bank then the gym gotta work on this 25 pound goal here :)