feeling very anxious

h went 2 his 1st personal therapy session.  with a mental health prof not my pastor.  anyway he didnt really tell me anything about his session & he doesnt have 2. i just hoped that he would.  i find myself wanting 2 b close 2 him.  wanna cuddle.  wanna have sex.  the submission thing has bn a great way 2 get him 2 take over. he really liked it & also did i.  makes me kinda have 2 wait.  cant be the agressor. if id thought about it earlieri cld have put on some lingerie 2 entice him,but looks like hes not interested.  im getting aroused though.  just thinking about the last few times. it really was excellent.  would b a great stress reliever.