feeling so i dont know

hi to you my friends. i am feeling so depresseddepressed that jessy was ever brain damageddepressed that jessy was disableddepressed that jessy is deaddepressed that Khaely has bipolar i am trying so hard,and every single dayis another battleeven when i get time for a restits as if i never even restedits so hard im so depressedthe tears are fully packed behind my eyesand at the pit of my throatbut they wont come outi am so sadso very very very sad jan