feeling sad and alone in this cold world
But at the same time it's hard for me to trust people enough to open up and make friends and trust that they will not end up hurting me. When someone gets too close, I tend to push them away.
I don't want anyone to take advantage of me as people have done in the past, so I close myself off. I want to trust, but I find that people nowadays are in it for themselves. They try to use others to their advantage and once they are done with them, that's it they throw the person away. And that makes me angry.
Lots of users in my family. They'll be happy and love you when you do things for them but are never around to help out or show love when the going gets tough.
I try to be strong and make it on my own but I feel that's it's making me a little bitter, negative and hard. I don't want to become that person.
I realize that it's not that easy to be on my own. Especially now. I've been unemployed since January and the benefits have run out. Thank goodness I found a contract through a temp agency as a part time receptionist. Still looking for full time work. Hoping praying and keeping faith.
I don't want anyone to take advantage of me as people have done in the past, so I close myself off. I want to trust, but I find that people nowadays are in it for themselves. They try to use others to their advantage and once they are done with them, that's it they throw the person away. And that makes me angry.
Lots of users in my family. They'll be happy and love you when you do things for them but are never around to help out or show love when the going gets tough.
I try to be strong and make it on my own but I feel that's it's making me a little bitter, negative and hard. I don't want to become that person.
I realize that it's not that easy to be on my own. Especially now. I've been unemployed since January and the benefits have run out. Thank goodness I found a contract through a temp agency as a part time receptionist. Still looking for full time work. Hoping praying and keeping faith.
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This world can really weigh you down. Family will always disappoint you from time to time (and I know this from personal experience). I hope you feel better. I\'m glad you found a job and I hope you can find long term employment. Stay strong. Hugs.
Thanks Lovely. I got a call back last Monday for a long term contract. Not exactly what I\'m looking for but it is definitely a blessing. Thank the Lord for looking after me and not letting me down.
Thank God isn\'t he good and he keeps blessing us all. We may not always get exactly what we want but he gives us what we need.