Feeling much better about things is general

I have decided not to let my son's actions  effect my happiness. I am just beginning to come out of the depressed state or shock whatever you call it since my daughter died. I am beginning to get my life back. I can't let this ruin it. Even though I love my son, it's his own problem he has to deal with and I am not the one that needs to fix it. So since I have made this decision I feel much better about myself. I am going to go on and try to make my life as happy as I can and try not to let things that I can not fix get to me..... I have decided to breed my Dog Molly and have found a good stud dog for her. She is not in heat as of yet, but today we are going to take her over there and meet him to she how she does get along and just to see for myself how he looks and acts. Call me crazy, but I feel like she is my child and I will be a grandmother. LOL Since I don't get to see my grandchildren as I would like to its the second best thing. LOL But these will be dogs that I can sell so I can't get to attached. I really like the breed and I do think by breeding Molly I will be progressing the breed. So its not all about money. My work has been really good these pass few weeks, we haven't gotten in any more grumpy people, and the one women we did get told me one night her sister put her on the commode and she didn't want to be disturbed for he rest of the night. Well the next night I ask the nurse whether she was swimming in pee the next morning and they said she was, so that night I when up and told her if we change her now then she wouldn't need to be changed until when the day shift came on. She agreed and didn't even yell when we went to change her. She is a retired nurse and has had a dislocated hip for many years because she didn't want anyone to fix it....So she plays that up and when  you go to touch her anywhere she yells, I don't know why because she doesn't apear in any sort of pain. She does not like to move in the bed herself, so she is just waiting for a bedsore to happen. So far I haven't or anyone else hasn't noticed any broken or redden areas. So until then I am going to let her just have her own way, because to tell ou the truth I can't put up with the sceaming(like we are killing her) and the constance fussing while we are jsut rolling her over. She is on a pain patch and I think she just screams because she doesn't want anything done to her not that she is that much pain.....I just hope when I get older that I don't act the way some of these old people do. Well everybody take care and have a good weekend.

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It is so hard to live with a child that is addict. It is easy to say we will let it go,bbut lots harder to do so. I feel for you, I suerely do. I lived with it for years with my youngest son. It ended up killing him, by an accidental Overdose of pain meds, and alchol. I will pray for you and all your family. You are not along, and do not ever blmae yourself! It happens to children, of good parents, and bad parents, it happens, yo orphans and people with a house full of loving family. No one is immune these days. It is not even just the young anymore, but older people as well are caught in the awful circle of addiction. You have enought mourning to do. Never give up,keep praying, As long as he breathes there is hope! But please try not to let your life be taken over ny his addiction. Don\'t let it stop you from living the best life you can. I understand, as I have walked those awful steps, and felt all the fear and pain. I have lost my second son to suicide, and his depression started all over his beothere and his life and death. You have enough of a hill to climb with just your daughter\'s death. I will pray for all of you, and hope that you can find some kind of peace. I also pray your son will somehow see what he is doing to himself before it is too late. My love and prayers,Peggy
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Glad you decided to have a life anyway as you should. I agree it\'s the son that needs help. Good on you. Good luck with your dog. Love and hugs Cathy