Feeling motivated!

I have to say I feel way way better.  I have accepted some things and committed to others.  I have accepted that my body wasn't able to carry a baby right now. I am still sad, but I know some things need to change first. I need to get healthier. I quit smoking after 6 years and that's unbelievable, but I need to get into shape now that my lungs will allow that.  I have committed to start training for a half marathon here in St. Louis in April. Now, we are going to continue to TTC after the first of the year so I may not actually run in the race, but would love to at least train for a while.  So I just ran (well walk/ran) 2 miles!! I feel so good. My DH and I needed a hobby and this is it. Hopefully it will spark us up again.  On a sad note, I am still playing the waiting game with my body. Not sure how long this will go on but I am getting frustrated. All I have is brown spotting with no signs of anything else.  I have given up on scouring the internet for some reason why this happened. It did. All I can do is move forward.  I will think positively.