feeling lost but gotta do stuff

gosh help me big guy upstairs!

gotta keep on keepin on.

I don't want to go outside.

I don't want to do anything that my suburban homestead area

has to offer...eat, drink, shop, work...repeat.

maybe I'll go for a hike in the mountains..I do like walking...

maybe I'll join a walking club if there is one around here.

When I lived in San Francisco there was a great walking club

that was so very fun and social...the walks were nice and vigorous

but mostly it was fun to just chat and joke around when we were walking.

Crazy non sequitur, but I have been thinking of stopping my trips to Starbucks outside

of a regular coffee and cream. Those drinks are so crazy sweet I usually feel like

a sugar coma and depressed afterword. Not good. They taste yummy but

even their sweetness is getting on my nerves a bit. I wish they would focus

on making the drinks flavorful and high quality rather than dowse it with

sugar just to overwhelm your senses.

Anyways, one more thing (on my soapbox) is that I've been thinking

about our ability (human kind lol) to combat climate change. It seems like we humans

are too much into our own individual 'boogies of life' to be able to see beyond our noses on how

to take care of the waste products and wastefulness we have.

We're just like every other animal. Or maybe like the termites and bees (specifically in this sense)

who create huge homes until one day the whole thing collapses

and then another faction starts again in some other place.

Ok that's my dose of rant today. Haha.

Some days when nothing makes sense you just have to value yourself in

some way - somehow....and keep on keeping on.

I'll clean the house and make this the ship shape ship

that I'd like it to be! If you've ever seen Samuel Beckett's "Waiting for Godot"

that's how it all feels today.

Peace and good vibes! Boogie on.