Feeling lonely and miserly today.

I am feeling lonely and miserly today.  
I just feel everything that is going on in my life on my shoulders at the moment.
Christmas is hard for me without Smokey.  How is everyone coping with Christmas coming up?  It is hard without your special someone or family or friend that has gone on before to share in the season of Christmas.  I think that is what is getting to me.  I will fill you in.
Smokey hated Christmas.  I loved Christmas.  Smokey went out of his way to make it very special for me and he succeeded.  Today for the first time I put up the Christmas tree and pointsetta flower, which are fiber optics.  It takes two seconds to put them out for the season.  I even put out my Christmas plate, which was gift from my older brother.
I did not get that much in the way of Christmas gifts.  I got my older brother Don socks and mitts.  I got Tyson, my grandson, coloring pages along with washable magic markers.  It did not cost that much but I wanted to give him crayola gift this year but not able financially.
Christmas is lonely for those who are not living with someone special, friend or a family member.  I can take Don is mall doses because of his Asperger's Syndrome.  Its not easy.  He will be the only one I celebrate with on Christmas Day.  Lisa and Grant offered to share in Christmas Eve.  Its the first time they offered to celebrate any of the season with me.
Let me know how you are celebrating Christmas from Diane B.