Feeling Horrible

I spoke to someone that dealt with people that have infertility issues.
I started to break down and cry because ...I was feeling soo horrible about not being able to go... full term with my baby.
I questioned my womanhood and my ability to ever have a child.I start to say things, like maybe I am not suppose to be a mother.Something is wrong with me,I am being punished for not have children... earlier in my life.
Started feel so angry with myself for moving ....to  know that I might be pregnant.
Seeing a faded positive... made it, even worst.... because now I am seeing more red.
I don't know what to do  because I am starting to feel like...  maybe I am in the early stages of a miscarriage although I am not experiencing any pain.All pregnancy signs faded except heighten sense of smell.
My honey is soo supportive in my time of needed,which is...very helpful at this time.