Feeling good surprisingly.
God, help me.. Cause I'm still in love with him....
We talked for a pretty long time tonight, until he got really tired. We played video games for a while. A guy is mad cause he tried trash talking the guy I have feelings for and I shut him down and defended him. I normally keep the peace and don't take sides when my friends argue.. But he is the one person I will always defend and side with against almost everyone... It's my biggest downfall.. But tonight was nice, we play minecraft for a while before he went to bed. I really hope things continue to go this well between us. I actually feel like we are getting closer again. I've missed nights like tonight. But anyways, I had a pretty good day/night. The usual drama with my family... But I really have felt okay.. And I'm going strong considering I got little sleep. I feel much better. : ) plus I juss found out I can wear my gym shorts from when I was 12-13 which makes me feel a lil better. Goal is to lose enough weight that I can't really wear them anymore haha. Well. I just had a pretty decent night and felt like writing I'm ending the night on a good note. I had fun with the guy I have feelings for, I had a good food, felt kinda pretty (as long as I didn't take a picture), and I get to look forward to talking to him again tomorrow ^_^ Not going to get my hopes up though. Enjoying things while I can but I am still going to prepare myself for the worst and hope for the best.
We talked for a pretty long time tonight, until he got really tired. We played video games for a while. A guy is mad cause he tried trash talking the guy I have feelings for and I shut him down and defended him. I normally keep the peace and don't take sides when my friends argue.. But he is the one person I will always defend and side with against almost everyone... It's my biggest downfall.. But tonight was nice, we play minecraft for a while before he went to bed. I really hope things continue to go this well between us. I actually feel like we are getting closer again. I've missed nights like tonight. But anyways, I had a pretty good day/night. The usual drama with my family... But I really have felt okay.. And I'm going strong considering I got little sleep. I feel much better. : ) plus I juss found out I can wear my gym shorts from when I was 12-13 which makes me feel a lil better. Goal is to lose enough weight that I can't really wear them anymore haha. Well. I just had a pretty decent night and felt like writing I'm ending the night on a good note. I had fun with the guy I have feelings for, I had a good food, felt kinda pretty (as long as I didn't take a picture), and I get to look forward to talking to him again tomorrow ^_^ Not going to get my hopes up though. Enjoying things while I can but I am still going to prepare myself for the worst and hope for the best.
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