Feeling confused

I don't know why I am feeling confused. The weather was beautiful today. I was thinking about my New Year resolutions. I'm going to volunteer next week. So excited about it. I hope I will do well in volunteering. I hope I don't get stress out. Stress is one of my triggers for depression.  I feel like I can do it.  I'm going to take baby steps.
My mind has been racing all day. I can't wait to take my medications so I can calm my mind. I'm trying to think postitively.
I want this year to be good. I want to be stable, stay healthy, and live a good life.