Feeling Alone & Lost

Well. Here I am again.Didnt realize its been so long since I have been here.Discovering more about facebook I guess.Always said I didnt want a facebook until it was the only way to contact my son. I really try not to spend so much time on the computer as time seems to fly by and I get nothing done..Seems my problems are still the same since i wrote last ,still dealing with my 24 year old son.Then there is my so called husband .Either way I just wonder how i ever became a shell of a woman..I dont even know who i am ....I used to be so much in charge of my life and everyone elses..Now I avoid conflict and wanna run away...No really I just wanna live and be happy but happiness is a million miles .away..How do you change your life when you can barely face the day?? Money,money,money makes the world go around well my world has stopped and is still spinning backwards...I just cant get ahead no matter what I do.The bills are getting higher but no more money to pay them.My electric bill on a budget is 405.00 a month and if you dont pay it every month on time they will take me off a budget and demand the whole back balance of a thousand dollars.Thats only one bill.I just cant do it anymore....Asshole hubby just wants to know where his beer and cigarette money is...I am so sad and never have anyone to talk to,no one wants to hear your problems when everyone has enough of their own..Life is so very lonely ...