The darkest secret about DID and PTSD is when your own family do not believe you and they no longer want to help you. My heart aches that my children hate me. The sad thing is I did not survive all the sexual abuse and ritual abuse to be punished by my children for it. I've been drinking heavy since Dom came. I could give her a real reason to hate me by killing myself. at least their worries would stop. God you have to tell me who I am and why you created me? Obviously my children have been a diversion.