feeling a bit better

Spoke to the better 1/2 this eve @ dinner & explained how I always feel bombarded w/ issues.  If it's not work, it's here.  I feel like I never get a break.  It's no wonder I'm frazzled.  I always have to be the responsible one.  And it's hard to always have to operate @ 110%.  I think he understood.  Yet I thought that was the case before.  Anyhow, I feel a bit better. I haven't cut since Sun.  Been flicking that good ol' rubber band a bit much.  But better than a razor, right?  Next time I set a goal, it will be a smaller one.  I think I bit off more than I could chew this time around. I'm anxious.  I've always had a touch of the social phobia problem.  We have friends coming to stay with us for the weekend.  We've known them for years.  But we haven't seen them since 2004.  I'm worried.  Hell, being a rabid perfectionist, I ALWAYS worry about the chinks in my armor.  But given everything that's gone wrong lately, I'm REALLY worried.  And, yes, I know, that's the pessimist in me rearing it's fat, ugly mug.  I try to stifle it w/ reason.  Logically, I know everything will be fine.  Even if there are problems, it'll be ok.  So, *sigh* I'm just doing my best to not be too anxious.