Feelings

Anger, bitterness, resentment, self-loathing, betrayal, hatred, rage. These are the feelings I live with.

I wish I had been cruel when I was kind, then I might have deserved what I got.

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deleted_user
deleted_user

I, too, wonder what I have done wrong to deserve the misfortunes that I have had in my life. Do you know what? Being kind instead of cruel in spite of the cruelness and misfortunes we experience in life is a true testament to the type of people we are.

I am so sorry that you\'re tormented by so many negative feeling; I certainly can relate. However, you are a good person and you deserve to be happy. You may have made mistakes in the past that haunt you and you may have regrets but how can you become the person you want to be when you constantly beat yourself up for the person you once were?

Anyways, I hope that you\'ll feel better soon and I\'m here for you my friend.
gooch
gooch

sorry heretic. you must be very hurt.
deleted_user
deleted_user

they are some mighty strong feelings. does it help to write out the details?