Feel Unworthy

Woke up this morning feeling like I just don't desrve my husband and daughter. Like no matter what we do we won't get where we want to be. Like because of the things that has happened to me when I was younger I shouldn't have the life that I have now. I do my best to be the best mom and wife but there are days that I feel like I just can't do it and feel like crap when I don't clean the house because of my stupid feelings. Like I am a bad mom and wife if I don't do a day of cleaning. I try my best to not let my daughter see me feeling this way so I put on a fake smile but inside I feel like I am a bad mom for being depressed. I just wish my life was different as a child and teen then I wouldn't feel this way.