feel bad and hurt tues sept 27, 2001.

well another terrible night. slept at leaste 8 or 9 hrs. but i feel as ussuall like i got no sleep. its sooo hard to be comfortable, i wake up sooo many times in night, have to move. these pain pills are a big fat joke. tried to call son but of corse got no answer. sis went out that way but  i wasnt awake. me and b.f. got into it as i said last night. i just hurt. the swelling is going down good, but it seems like i can realy feel the pain now. maybe the swelling was masking the pain. i just wish i could get a great nights sleep. sitting in wheel chair w/ my bean bag weight on my bad knee. thats the best and probly one of the hardest ones. i am so weak. scared to go too far in walker sence i    fell once w/ w that, and i fell another time before sergury. im just a little girluy girly. i cant stand this pain. so got up about 11.30. getting earlier at leaste. just ate breakfast. bro in law playing records good soothing music. missed the all my children fanaly. bummer. wonder if they offed everyone or if its going to be a sapranos ending. that would realy suck still mad about that one. i think lost did good w/ there ending in my opinion. but thats just me. ok, its been about 45 min w/ the weight on knee./ thats the longest so far. ok, moore later.....