Feel a little shity today

  Feel not good today. Had a headache since yesterday, and body just feels sore. I think it's because my room is cold at night. Anyway, finding I 'm having to work a bit hard to stay positive. Keep feeling down a lot, but I am fighting it. I think it's lonliness that's trying to get me. i answered a post this morning, and it reminded me of the way I was years ago with my wife. That made me sad. Seems like that's a haunt that will never fully go away, no matter what I do. She's dead now and gone, but still it lives in me. I try not to dwell in it, because that's dangerous. Lots of times when I'm doing well with recovery, it does seem a lot easier to deal with. Anyway, going to the noon meeting today, not sure afterwards, but I will try to stay positive. I think I need to start going to the gym. It's been a long winter, and I have been just staying inside a lot. Getting older, and need to keep things running good. Not like when I was younger and seemed like all I had to do was live. Thank you, Lord for another day sober.