Fed up
Ive had a piece of flat pack furniture ready to build for my room which had been on hold as weve been wokring on doing the big units on the landing which were more important. we still need to transfer over all the art stuff away now.
this morning theres been so much noise banging downstairs which again is bad for my health and unneccassry to do such things in the mornings when im at my worst.
when i go down for lunch i see my furniture is nearly all made up. i was looking forward so much to making that myself but more so its the fact that i wasnt even asked if it could be done, they didnt even bother to ask me if it was ok to open the box, if it was ok to make it, if it was ok to make noise, if it was ok to start today when theres no room for it yet and too many other things needed to be tidied up first, if we were going out today and therefore it has now meant that i cannot go out this week, if i wanted to make it up this afternoon with their help today. No. None of that.
they specificaly went behind my back, during the morning when i cannot be downstairs to see what they are doing, took my furniture and decided to make it without my consent, knowing full well i wanted to do it myself or be part of the process. They took away every level of autonomy from me knowingly.
The laughable thing is they just made up the other large unit yesterday which is still waiting to put things away in and mum claimed to be so tired from it she couldnt come upstairs to help me with anything in the evening however she can quickly make up a full piece if furniture this morning before im able to see whats going on!
There is absolutely no reason for this furniture to be made up in a rush it is now in the way and causing problems !!! Its going to force me to not be able to do any of the things i had planned for today. And made me feel like an utter piece of helpless shit as they have yet again asserted the fact that they have utter control over me and all my things and can do whatever the fuck they like whenever they want and i am helpless to stop them.
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I realise this may sound odd if you dont know my situation, I am severly chronically ill and have been my whole life, things like not making loud noises in the mornings when theres a choice, is just how we live now. Its largely about having the things I have left in my life that i actually have 'control' over, which is very few and being listened to as a human being and treated as an equal adult. Which I am not and this is an ongoing issue that has been for years and years, Its not an isolated issue that I am being overly sensitive to, if that makes sense..
Because I spoke up about this they told me dont you dare ask to go out because neither of are going to take you anywhere. As if I was actually going to ask them, all I want is to run as far as possible away from them but I cant even walk.