feb. 3, 2012

woke up this morning to a pile of snow on the ground.  school closures all over the place but my kids only have a 4 day school week anyway.  I seem to have problems with my eyes.  They hurt pretty bad this morning and everything is blurry even with reading glasses.  I have had a numb spot on my lower spine which feels odd.  never had anything but foot go numb really.  I am going to see a counselor tomorrow.  I meant to do it in Sept but then my son tore his ACL and I had to pay for all of his health bills.  He had to go to PT and doctors and there was no time for me to take for me.  I need to talk with someone other than my hubby...not that he isn't supportive of me but he tends to make me a little more stressed about things.  He always tells me to just blow this off and that and then he doesn't follow his own advice.  He can blow off a coworker treating him like shit but when the kids have a bad day he can't just let them be.  He has to yell at them and tell them that he runs the show.  Sometimes  I think his parenting style is corrections officer style.  Almost military like but with more control over an individual.  Ah well.  I will go and discuss my misery with a counselor.  i will tell her about the stresses of my health and the bullies I dealt with daily at work.  I will discuss how they both combined to help me lose my job.  too little too late.  
I am having too much trouble typing today. not getting the right keys and backspacing too much.  will just put this aside and go rest my eyes a bit.